I spent all day at home today.
I didn’t spend time with my friends. I didn’t hangout with a guy. I didn’t go to work, or to church, or to the store. I haven’t talked to anyone on the phone. I didn’t study or check on work stuff. I just spent the day at home and through the course of the day did a few things of unimportance.
I sat on the porch and had breakfast. I watered my plants and washed the dishes. I reorganized my closet, then unpacked and sorted through a few more things. I read some of a cheesy romance novel (not helping my high expectations of men, but I can’t help myself). I did a little crafting for a new journal/agenda I’m making and tried to decide where to hang new shelves I painted. I ate some of the chicken noodle soup I made at 10pm last night. I took a nap after lunch and woke up with my cat curled up napping next to me. I laid in bed watching tv for quite some time.
I spent one whole day doing only things that brought me joy and comfort.
Why is it so hard for people to have days like today? Why does it take us getting to our breaking points to remember that we are worthy of happiness? I know that I tend to only let myself have days like today. Oh, I studied for my exams for 7 hours this week, worked three hours of overtime, spent evenings on the phone or with my friends, sang at church choir rehearsal and Saturday service, cleaned and organized my entire kitchen, deck, and bedroom, planned meetings with three friends for this coming week and had multiple meetings about extracurricular activities, and even worked a little on my blogging goals? Yeah, I think that’s enough to justify one day of rest.
Recently, a number of my military friends got their orders and shipped of to their next assignments. A few others have gotten busy in their own lives and families and we haven’t kept in touch. I suddenly find myself with more time on my hands than I am used to. In some ways I’m sad to to let go of the weekly dinners and weekend adventures, but in a way I am relieved as well. It surprised me to realize in their absence just how much time I’ve spent taking care of other people’s happiness or planning get togethers and trying to soak up time that was passing too quickly.
And now, for the first time in a long time, I have had such a productive yet relaxing and utterly lazy day to myself.
I can’t claim to know what we each deserve in life. But I know that I’d like to think there are a few things that we should all consider ourselves worthy of. Contentment is my word for today.
Here is wishing that anyone reading this finds contentment in their life, be it a fleeting moment or a day like today, and may you never forget what that feeling is like.
All my love,
Kelly
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